Well this past month has been a roller coaster ride of emotions. I have ok days, hard days, harder days, and days I don't want to get out of bed. Some days I just want to sit in Gracia's room and cuddle her elephant, Fern, and smell her outfit that I never washed that I keep in a ziplock that still smells like her and look through her pictures. For those of you that know me very well, I like to keep busy and go go go and do do do, so there are days where I just want to bake all day, which my family knows I've been doing a lot of. But then there are days I surround myself with friends and family and I have fun and laugh and can talk about Gracie and just smile thinking about what she would be doing if she was there with me. Thanksgiving was a hard day for me. It was exactly a month since the last day we spent with her. There were a lot of people gathered at the Hunt's household in Monticello and it was almost too much for me. On Friday we celebrated Thanksgiving with my family and it was small, but everyone that was there knew Gracie. We all went around the table, like we always do, and all said what we were most thankful for this year. We all talked about Gracie and her and God's mission for the time that she was with us. We laughed and we cried but we all felt God's presence in the room with us. I can't tell you how much my life and perspective on everything has changed in the past 4 months. God has been with me everyday and every struggle and he LOVES ME SO MUCH! I like how Brad explained Gracie's life verse at the funeral, he hit it right on the head! Her verse says " When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you; when you walk through the fire, you will not be burned." This verse doesn't say that when you pass through the rivers, you won't have to paddle like crazy or when you walk through the fire, you won't feel the heat, it says that God promises he will be with us every step of the way. Through wind and rain, through storms and sunshine. Why? BECAUSE HE LOVES US!
Gracie has shown up a number of times through Gods nudges and songs being played. She used to love hearing us sing "wheels on the bus" to her and would just light up when we made hand gestures of wipers swishing and babies going wah wah wah. A few days after Gracie passed my dad was in a kinkos getting copies of pictures for the service. While he was waiting, some employee in the back room was randomly singing "wheels on the bus." There have been quite a few times where I've been cooking or baking in the kitchen and one of the songs that I used to sing to Gracie starts playing on pandora. Even my Uncle Jim has felt nudges...
The Monday after Gracia’s Coming Home Service, Jim went back to work. He had parked his truck the evening of Thursday, and there it sat until Jim was ready for work on Monday. Jim drives a big truck that hauls big dumpsters. He was prepping his truck for his morning run and backed it up but it did not feel right. He pulled forward again and then reversed the truck and something still was not right. Jim felt a tapping of sorts to get out of his truck and check it out. When he did he found that the axel in the front was bad and if he would have pulled onto the freeway for his morning run he would have lost a tire that may have rolled and if it hit a car it could have been deadly. More than likely his truck would also have rolled at highway speeds as well. Jim got back into his truck and felt Gracia’s presence beside him. He immediately called his wife, Teri, and she said "you know who was watching over you, don’t you?” Jim replied ‘yes, it was our little angel, Gracia."
I have done a number of projects in honor of Gracia in the past weeks. I made a Christmas wreath with purple and pink flowers on it with butterflies that is now hanging on our doorstep. I also finished a shadowbox with all of her special things in it that is now hanging in her room. I have a few other things up my sleeve for Christmas.
I wanted to also take the time to thank all of you that made it to her service. There was an incredible amount of people there, I wish I could have visited with you all, but thank you for being there with us. Her service was so special and I worked so hard to make it "very Gracie," and it was exactly what I wanted. Thank you to those of you who sent cards to us as well. If any of you who couldn't make it to the service and would like to see it, please let me know, we would love to show you the recording. I will leave my contact info at the bottom of this message.
As many of you know, I do not have a job right now. My only income is my cake business. I have been baking like a mad lady and trying to find belly's to put it all in may be easy, but not always convenient or cost effective. :-) If you have a need for a cake or cupcakes, please think of me or if you know anyone or hear anyone that is in need of a cake, please mention my name. I would greatly appreciate it! Here is my web page... www.beckscakes.shutterfly.com. I also have a Facebook page just search for "Queen of Unbleached Flour."
Becky Hunt
www.beckscakes.shutterfly.com
Beckyahunt@hotmail.com
763-229-7890
